Change | in constant motion

"Change in constant motion" isn't a new thought or a new way the world works. I use these words to remind myself so that I might be more prepared for change - when it inevitably happens. We all have had those moments of surprise and devastation that cause an impact. Those moments change us. By going through the changes, we are provided opportunities to learn and grow. These moments, however hard they may be, should be filled with hope, growth, and support.

This site is really meant for me as a way to "present" all my newfound creativity as well as document my journey through change with a focus on my ever-changing interests and all that is happening around me.

A few snippets of how creativity has appeared during my life

The creativity was there in my youth. I remember grabbing a pencil and paper and drawing, doodling. My mom spent time showing me how to crochet blankets with different stitches to make patterns. In my 20's my mother-in-law introduced me to crafting, which opened a whole new world. I think I have about 4 or 5 glue guns floating around this house, all hidden somewhere special. My great Auntie Phil created hand-woven baskets. I have about 6 of her baskets; they trigger wonderful memories of us enjoying outings for afternoon tea.

As for my career, I've been in the technical field for almost 30 years. The path has been an incredible ride. I'm very thankful for the opportunities and challenges provided to me over these years. I wouldn't change a thing. Well, maybe one or two..

In technology, there is so much creativity required to reach the desired results. Nothing is ever cut and dry; everything is always changing. Technologists need to be creative to bring together the needs of people and the organization, to ensure the enablement of the technology. We have methods and frameworks to guide us, but we need our creativity to create room for connecting, listening, and growing.

Well, here I am, 50+ years of age, and the creativity has decided to pour out of me. I started watercolors in 2022. Then tried working with clay, but realized I'm going to need my own kiln, so that's on hold - for now. I also decided I should try 'create' a green thumb. I'm happy to say I started with 5 house plants and currently have 41 indoor plants. Sometimes I'm known for going a little overboard..

From a gardening perspective, Farming is supposedly in my blood. My dad and grandfather had a large farm in VT. My dad still does sugaring and vegetable gardens along with other "farm" stuff. Three years ago, I thought I would try my hand at Cucumbers and Green Beans. It went pretty well, so each year I keep adding more veggies!

I also found a TV show called "Growing Floret" that has inspired me. Floret Flowers. I'm getting older, so the topic of retirement and what I want to do comes up frequently. My canned answer has always been "I'm going to be a florist". When asked why, my answer is "Who wouldn't want to be around beautiful flowers all day long?" To me, flowers represent happiness, joy, and wonder. I'm not saying I want to "own" a floral business, I'm saying that I want to be surrounded by lots and lots of flowers when the day comes I decide to retire.

After watching the second season of Growing Floret, I purchased some of their flower seeds to start my own cut flower garden. I started with 2 beds, then added 2 more. This past year, I went up to 10 beds, which turned out to be 4 beds too many..

Change IS in constant motion

I have a lot of interest appearing. I think this means that I'm experiencing more change. I'm learning new things each day. How to grow plants, understanding the amount of sun and water the flowers need, reading stories that make me think differently, and expressing myself with watercolors. All of these experiences are changing and evolving me. Maybe even preparing me for my next chapter in life.

I'm choosing to be reminded that everything changes. I understand that I can't be fully prepared for all changes, but I feel like I'm training myself to be more aware, more resilient, more empathetic, to be grateful in the moments, and to keep moving in whatever direction is needed.

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THANK YOU

If you have stumbled on this site, Thank you for indulging my whims. I hope that my own journey inspires someone else on whatever their journey happens to be.

For my family who will get a link to review this site and watch my progress across all of my interests - Thank you - I wouldn't be who I am without all of you. I treasure us.

PS. I won't share any embarrassing stories or family secrets. Love to all

Heidi Lamar