This isn't a new thought or a new way the world works. I like to remind myself as a way to be more prepared for change. We all have had those moments of surprise and devastation that cause an impact. In the end, the change - has indeed changed us. By going through the changes, we are provided opportunities to learn and grow. Those learning are as individual, unique, and special - as each of us is.
This site is really meant for me as a way to "present" all my newfound creativity as well as document my journey through change with a focus on my ever-changing interests and all that is happening around me.
A few snippets of how creativity has appeared during my life
The creativity was there in my youth, I remember grabbing pencil and paper and drawing, doodling. My mom spent time showing me how to crotchet blankets with patterns and different stitches. In my 20's my now ex-mother-law introduced me to crafting, which opened a whole new world. I think I have about 4 or 5 glue guns floating around this house, all hidden somewhere special. My now ex-great Auntie Phil, hand-wove baskets. I have about 6 of her baskets - they trigger wonderful memories of her and me enjoying outings for afternoon tea.
Then -- something happened. I started building a career. I've been in the technical field for almost 30 years and it has been an incredible ride. I'm very thankful for the paths I took that provided amazing opportunities and challenges. I wouldn't change a thing. ok, maybe one.
In technology, there is so much creativity required to reach the desired results. Nothing is ever cut and dry, everything is always changing. Technologists need to be creative to bring together the needs of people, and the organization, ensure security/regulation compliances, and enable the adoption of the technology. Maybe it's a different type of creativity.
Well here I am, 50+ years of age, and the creativity has decided to pour out of me. I started watercolors in 2022. Then tried working with clay, but realized I'm going to need my own kiln so that's on hold for now. Also decided I should try "build" a green thumb, by seeing if I could "not kill" house plants. I'm happy to say I have 5 house plants that have lived with us successfully for at least 3 years!
From a gardening perspective, Farming is supposedly in my blood. My dad and grandfather had a large farm in VT. My dad still does Sugaring and vegetable gardens along with other "farm" stuff. This year, I thought I would try my hand at Cucumbers and Green Beans - so far so good!
I also found a TV show called "Growing Floret" that has inspired me. Floret Flowers. I'm getting older, so the topic of retirement and what I want to do comes up frequently. My canned answer is "I'm going to be a florist". When asked why, my answer is "Who wouldn't want to be around beautiful flowers all day long?" To me flowers represent happiness, joy, and wonder. I'm not saying I want to "own" a floral business, I'm saying that I want to be surrounded by lots and lots of flowers when I retire.
After watching the second season of Growing Floret, I purchased some of their flower seeds to start my own cut flower garden. This is a recent purchase, so ita a work in progress.
Change IS in constant motion
I have a lot of interest appearing. I think this means that I'm experiencing more change. I'm learning new things each day like - how to grow plants, understanding the amount of sun and water the flowers need, reading stories that make me think differently, and expressing myself with watercolors. All of these experiences are changing and evolving me. Maybe even preparing me for my next chapter in life.
I'm choosing to be reminded that everything changes. I understand that I can't be fully prepared for all changes but I feel like I'm training myself to be more aware, more resilient, more empathetic, to be grateful in the moments, and to keep moving in whatever direction is needed.
THANK YOU
If you have stumbled on this site - Thank you for indulging my whims. My hope is that my own journey inspires someone else on whatever their journey happens to be.
For my family who will get a link to review this site and watch my progress across all of my interests - Thank you - I wouldn't be who I am without all of you. I treasure us.
PS. I won't share any embarrassing stories or family secrets. Love to all
Heidi Lamar